Monday, July 29, 2013

Poems

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Micropoems




Medusa And Perseus
her head was his goal
but her gaze cowed his soul
a chill deep in the bone
would turn him to stone




 
 
 
 
 
 
Rosy Red
her rosy red
bent over the bed
a grin In her eyes
such lovely thighs
wriggling her flank
with every spank
and ponytail yank
 
 
 
 
 
 
Mom
 
she kissed my scrapes
and healed them
calmed me
when my anger flared
her breasts became
my first refuge
my orphaned heart recalls
 
 
 
 
 
The Loveliest Hearts
 
the loveliest hearts
find each other,
even in the darkest corners
their light shines brilliantly
one for the other
 
 
 
 
 
Nightshade
 
a wink and a gentle nudge
hide tomorrows lies behind
a mask of innocence
more poisonous
than nightshade
 
 




Her Eyes

with a mere glimpse
I fall into her eyes
swimming desperately
for a surface
which is not there
for her eyes lie
 





Marry Me

You said one day you'll marry me
Of that I have no doubt
We will live and love happily
Thru caviar and sauerkraut


 
 
 
 
 
Pixie
 
A pixie stood
under a mushroom
waiting for the rain to ease
 
she liked the patter
but it stirred the dust
causing her to sneeze
 
 
 
 
 
Love Was There
love was there
I know it was
the feeling is
hard to fake
 
But something happened
along the way
and now there is
just this ache
 
 
 
 
The Mirror Stands
 
The mirror stands
in the corner
silently observing
the life around it,
commenting on
behavior with
its very reticence



 
 
The Last Thing
she was there

it was the last thing
he expected...
and the most delightful
 
 
 
 
 
Touch
As I pass by
our hands brush
skin grazing silken skin
I raise my eyes
to apologize
and find on your face a grin



Grandfathers Library
dust motes float
in the sunbeams
through curtain pinholes -
grandfathers library is a
long vanished world
of adventure




The Old Church
the roof collapsed long ago,
weeds grow
where the pulpit stood,
yet I still hear
the faithful raise
a chorus in praise





The Crypt
Menacingly crouched among the stones...
moldy angels leer at all who pass
even the dying grass seems cowed





In Love With Love
In love with the idea
of being in love,
but not in love with me,
she spoke the words
I wanted to hear
her only wish, to flee.






Your Touch

you gently touch
my heart and soul
your delicate rushes
revive my senses
flash through my being
the unique magic that is you




Forgotten Garden
My forgotten garden
lingers in the mind;
that time cannot
be expressed
without tears
for the loss of
youthful love
and endless days





Eternity

if you give me you
and I give you me
we will ever be
from now to eternity






Christmas Day, 2000
Rain fell
onto freezing surfaces
ice built
trees creaked
limbs broke
streets blocked
power outage
coldest day in memory






Sexting and Texting

Sexting and texting
late night phone calls
there's nothing so cruel
as long distance love







Her Face
 Her face is etched in my memory
She's been gone for so long
I hoped it would
be faded now
but that may
never be






 


Ode To A Grumbling Gargoyle On Her Return From The Colonies

My thoughts return
to the dark insides
where the real me
writhes and coils
 
The smiles and nods
I greet you with
hide those nasty
roiling boils

 

Dreaming

Dreaming of you
makes living
worthwhile
 
 

Fleeting

autumn's fleeting beauty
lasts a lifetime
 
 
 
 

Twitter Friends

My Twitter friends
are so many blends
of love and joy
whether girl or boy
they treat me well
like the knell of a bell
so many kind
hearts entwined
 
 
 
 
 
 

Half Remembered Dream

I think of you often
like a half remembered dream
sometimes you're a poem,
with a long forgotten theme




Words

I play your
words on my
lips and tongue,
roll them around
nibble and nip.
Swallow and
beg for more.







I Love You

'I love you',
I murmur
while nibbling
 your lobe.

'I know', you
smile gently
as you slip off
your robe.





 
 
Honesty
 
I stand naked
before you
stripped bare
of all that I hide
from the world
My pledge to you
is honesty
 
 
 
 
 



Holding Yourself

Many young men
spend their teens
holding themselves
in their trousers

We're so afraid
it'll wander off
that we don't let go
for many hours






Dancing by Firelight
(Thanks to Cynthia Sierra [@azdesertr0se]. Her lovely poem was the inspiration for this)

She danced barefoot
in a long white gown
with daisies in her hair
 
The firelight shone on
her glistening face
I watch her, o so fair.







she turned the
brightness level
of my eyes
up and down,
according to
her mood.







The Milky Way
may fling itself
apart
and
I will still
love you


 
 
In the dark
my fingers found
her mons veneris
Her hand
clutched mine
and held it there
while she
gasped
into my throat
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Sin
 
If sin is the norm
like puritans preach
then God understands
when we act as they teach
 
 
 
 
Lucy

From inches away
she stares into my eye
unblinking
licks her lips
as if in anticipation,
and rubs her soft cheek
against mine,
marking me
as hers.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Like the egg
on the wall
I'm broken
Only you
can put me
back together
again.
You can,
but will you bother.
 
 
 
 
 
 
Head on
my pillow
I feel/hear
my heartbeat.
Memory of
pain causes
mind to race
heart apace
panic stirs.
 
 
 



The sidewalk
is empty.
Glancing up
a cluster
of cameras
catch the eye.
Movement...
One swivels
and points at
me
*shiver*
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
My plight
the blight
that is you
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
When silence was called for
I said the wrong thing
Now she is silent
And boy, does it sting
 




Written by June Sciortino
for Hap Rochelle

Sun casts ever shifting shapes
to dance in the spring breeze
as it edges toward nightfall
and the land of no shadows



 
 
 
 
I think of you touching me
even innocently
and crimson heat fires my loins.
Side by side, hands linked,
my eyes boast to all who see.





the long loneliness of age
so thankful for her love.
short yet joyous days.




 
 
 
Conversing,
his eyes searched the room
till he found her.
Sensing his glance,
hers sought his.
Eyes locked, that secret,
private smile.
 
 
 
Cumbersome 
 
Cumbersome
thoughts,
Terrible
memories
of wrongs
done, and
people
wounded.
An awkward
agony
drives a
jagged
wedge
thru my
heart

 
 
I wish more than life
to sleep naked
next to you once more
our bodies enlaced
 
 
 
 




Dark red lips
Sweet as wine
Share exotic
Treasures
Taste forbidden
Pleasures
In the reaches
Of your mind






The bitter taste
of solitude
dwells in the mind
Fear an old age
of loneliness
stretching out
ahead
Unwelcome tears
for
unknown fears 
 
 
 
 
I dreamt of a wind
blowing autumn leaves
scattered on the ground
like my tears,
loosed
as I watched you,
cold as a winter day,
turn
and walk away
 
 
 
 
________________________
 
The sincerity of those
who claim our love
is not to be denied.
 
We long to have passion
in our lives,
perhaps to soothe our pride

________________________
 
Cowboy and Indian
Musketeer
The joys of childhood
held no fear.

Soldier or trucker
Police or fireman
Our adult world is harder
goes not to plan.
____________________________

 

 Minds Eye

In my mind
I hear your voice
as clearly as if
you were
beside me
 
In my mind
I feel your love
melt my heart
with every
breath
________________

My life has led
from the beginning,
to this time and place.
Practice, and prelude,
 
for you
________________

My life has all been
practice,
a prelude
to you
________________

 

 

Purple Martins

Wheeling, diving, flowing,
a shimmering colony
of Purple Martins
by the cacophonous thousands
move as one monstrous being
across the sky.



___________________



The people I love most
Those I know I can trust
are the ones who stay close
when I'm not very lovable.



___________________

 

 

Gargoyle

Eyes look but
do not see.
Ears listen,
yet are deaf.
Wings folded,
and useless.
Crouched high on
the building
watching
waiting
silent.

 

 

Beloved

Dear
Beloved
Immortal prize
Takes the breath
Feel the heartbeat rise
The pleasure slows
As reality fixes
Love ebbs
Grief
 

 

 

Lonely

Lonely,
in a sea of friends,
wishing for you
and youth.
Praying for time,
seeing only
the end of time.
Bitterness almost
overwhelms.

 

 

 

Hearts

Your waist fits
perfectly
in my arms.
Our bodies match.
I feel most at home
when we're
intertwined.
Our hearts seem
to beat in tune.

 

 

 

Breath

I felt your breath on my cheek
Smiling, I turned to see
your lovely face,
realized it was
just a breeze,
and you are
far away.

 

 

 

Goodbye

Nothing matters
since you said
goodbye.
Heaven seemed
short lived.
Purgatory
a blessed
relief.
Hell is
forever,
or so it
seems.

 

 

Fear

Forlorn
Forgotten
Lost in a
forest of fears,
she struggles
against forces
seemingly
insurmountable
and emerges
 
triumphant
 
into the sunlight.
 

 

 

 

Scorn

She looked at me scornfully
I felt small and angry
The feeling dwells in my soul
Any happiness, she stole
How we treat others is key. 
 

 

 

Arguing

Why does she not agree
We argue and fight
Through half the night
And then we make up with glee!

 
 

Seaside

Sun kissed shores
Boat shipped oars
Moonlit seas
Salty breeze
 
Drunken tar
Staggers from bar
Sailors curse
Catch cutpurse.
 
 
_______________________ 
 
 
In the midst of
heartbreak
It may seem better
to never have
loved,
but oh
what we miss
if we don't fall in
love
once or twice!

 

 

 

Forest

Walking thru
A leafless forest
Lit by a silver moon
Quiet but for
The rustle of my
Feet in fallen leaves.
Time vanishes
As my spirits lift.


 
 _____________________________



He's all she wants
But then again,
She loves to flaunt
Her other men!
 

 

 

 

Bogeyman

When the lights go out at night
When noises cause a fright
The closet door ajar
From the bed I bolt, and bar
That door, fly back to bed
Ere dead.    
 

 

 

 

The Night

Wow! The night flew by!
It's too late for me to walk
If I go outside I'll fry
And everyone would gawk.

 

 

 

 Gargoyles and Hedges

From high above
the recessed alcove
the carved creature
eyed the feature
of the hedges down below.
 
 
 
 



You close your eyes
I kiss each one
Your cheeks want fun
From my butterflies
 
 
 



The longer I live
the less I know
but I have learned to
expect less
and give more
I'm much happier now.
 
 

 

 

Echoes

I hear the echo of my life
in the dark recesses of my mind
full of love and yes, of strife
I allow no regrets, even when inclined.
 
 
 

 

 

Smart

Say something smart
and people will flock to you
they may dislike
but they'll fawn.
 
Say something stupid
as we often do
your friends will
love you anyway!
 
 
 

 

 

Heaven

 
You touch my face,
My heart beats faster.
And then I find
You're in my arms.
My fingers roam 
Over silken skin.
Heaven waits 
 
 

 

 

 

Touch

 
I wait
 
wait
 
wait
 
For your fingers
 
Touch lingers
 
Agony
 
 

 

 

The Dark

Holding back the light
The dark hides the scars
Eager to prowl the night
Gathering in the stars
Blackness my birthright.
 

 

 

 

The Tout

Where's the tout?
You know, he's stout.
Looks like a trout.
The one with gout.
And the bulbous snout.
Eating the sprout.
He's such a lout.
Throughout!

Sunday, July 28, 2013

Odysseus

Returning home from Ilium
After that long and wearing war
Odysseus sailed toward Ithaca
Hoping to heal the scars.

Hungry, with hearts flagging
He found where the Cyclops fed
His men would eat Polyphemus' sheep
But many were a meal instead.

Heroically saving his men
Odysseus sailed away
Trapped by the daughter of Helios
Drawn to virtues she would display.

Told that he shouldn't
By Circe his former host
He listened to the Sirens
Almost wrecked upon their coast.

Home at last in Ithaca
After ten years on the sea
First he must dispatch the men
Who coveted his Penelope.

Disguised as a dirty beggar
To learn what must be done
He told his son Telemachus
How to take action certain.

With aid from his goddess Athena
After all the princes had failed
Godlike Odysseus strung his bow
And with an arrow each impaled.

Now his queen and son rejoice
Their king whom they adore
Will live a quiet, fruitful life
On Ithaca's idyllic shore.


Thursday, June 27, 2013

Haiku - Page 1


I hope you enjoy these. They can be hard to do, or easy. I never know which until I begin. Some just click, others take several revisions, and some may never be as good as I'd wish them to be. You can be the judge of  how well I succeeded. Have fun!

I have a separate page for #HaikuChallenge, where the word of the day changes daily.


Go to Page 2         Senryu        Micro-Poetry         Tanka








Sleep

Sleep has come and gone
Day begins, dragging me
into consciousness


Moths

Like moths to a flame
We are drawn to each other
Caught in the light.


Good Old Days

In ten years time
Yesterday and today will
be the good old days.



Life

Life is difficult
Short, savage and brutal
Then we eat ice cream!




Day Breaks

Sleep has come and gone
Day begins, dragging me
into consciousness


Butterfly Kiss

Eyes caress and smile
Soft cheeks accept silky
Butterfly kisses


Yellowstone

Yellowstone beauty
disguises massive eruption
Marking time.


Stalking

Stalking the night
Searching the dark hungrily
Can't find the       keys!



Worthwhile

Everyone hurts us!
The art is picking the ones who
make it worthwhile.





Dark

Day is done
Dark looms, advancing west
Light struggles in vain.


Hate

If it ends in hate,
no matter the reason,
it was not love.


Something...

Darkened room
Windswept limb scratches window
Something neath the bed.


Care

Cherry tree blooms  
on hillside, lava creeps near
life does not care.

Careworn thoughts persist
Denying sleep's comfort
Yearning for dreams.

Care has worn me down
Age demands surcease
Calm, repair, begin


Moment

A moment with
the right person can last
a lifetime
Or...
A moment with
the wrong person can feel
like a lifetime

Courage

One extra moment
of sacrifice, in the face
of fear, is courage!

 

Waves

The thrill of crashing
waves upon the rocks.
Nature most fierce!


Giving

Giving is a
boon above all else.
Blessing the giver.


Mistakes

We make mistakes
Stumble, perhaps rise again
Earth turns regardless


Followers

New followers are
new friends; exotic wonders
to experience.


Milky Way

The fuss around me
dies away as I glimpse the
unchanged Milky Way
Or...

I lift my eyes from
the fuss around me to the
constant Milky Way.


Heaven

Perhaps I overlook
heaven, while searching
for my star.



Moonlight

Shattered moonlight
On a choppy lake    Link to
the rips in my heart.


Scream

The scream rolled on
Into the night     How dare they
Change Coke for Pepsi!





Year

To the young a
year is endless. To the old
A blink of the eye.


Sleepless

Sleepless hours creep, like
a young turtle desperate
to reach the sea


Grain

Windblown wheat on a
vast plain      Ripening grain
 
awash in sunlight


Nero

Fiddling
While Rome burns
He laughs    delighted!



Meteor

Sky filled with streaks
Meteors fly    Counter
point to still stars


Governing

When did the servant
Become the master? We gave
Governance away!





Storms

Winds blow, rains adorn
Thunder rolls from night to morn
Saved from heat, storm borne.
Or...

Wind blows, rain falls
Lightning streak     Thunder
Slaps the night.


Scars

Scars are reminders
Of  conflicts fought
And battles won



Family

Friends and family
Life distilled to memories
Of time together





July 4, 2013
July 4, 2013


Stars and stripes fly high
Beacon facing tyranny
Born and kept in blood

...And...

Parades! Bar-B-Que!
Independence Day is here!
Long live our freedom!






Lost


Lost without your love
Life seems empty and forlorn
Happy days are gone
Or...
Lost, lonely
nights     days grind
on forever


Heart

I made a mistake
Perhaps I should have minded
When my head said no.


Love

I lived without love,
then you touched my heart and
it began beating!


Holly

Lovely deep green leaf
Ripe red waxen berries shine
Holly pricks when touched.
Or...

Shiny green leaf
Red waxen berries
Holly     pricks!



Love

I love you always
Our vow to one another
Always was not long.





Age

You swore age was not
important, yet the letter
spoke solely to that.









Dreamscape

 A nightmare dreamscape
Spirits of the dead haunt me
I wake dripping sweat
Or...

Nightmare imagery
Spirits of the dead     haunt
Dreams of the living.


Curves

Curves, lines of beauty
No thought of the camera
Only the angles


Entwined

Our bodies enlaced
Thoughts turn to what comes next
Do you take plastic?






Intercourse

Man woman abed
Coitus interruptus
I wish I was dead!


Heaven on Earth

Heaven is your hips
Sweet flowering labia
Nectar for my lips.






Moans

Fingers flick rapidly
Over fully engorged nub
Soft moans escalate.


Deeper

your back arches as
I plunge deeper, hoping to
touch your soul



Tears

Tears splatter to earth
Strewn on the ground like the dust
to which we return.

Or...

Tears fall to earth
Raise clouds    the dust
to which we  return



Wisteria

Wisteria blooms
Deep in the moonlit shadows
Brings joy to the dawn.


Child

The child in me likes
to lay in the grass and dream
of days long ago.


Reyna

The lovely chica
Who brightens my every day
With her boundless charms.


Luna

Deep in the night
Luna shines bright
Catch of breath    rapture!  


Roses

Roses twining skyward
Creeping toward the gable
Smile creases a raised face.


Roses

Rose aroma wafts
A gentle breeze sends fragrance
Into every nook.




Summer

Summer again
Autumn years grow long
Winter    looms.


 

Summer


Heavy yellow orb
Heat waves rising on the plain
Summer in Texas


Summer

Heat from the pavement
Waves of shimmering mirage
Summer in the city.


Summer

Oppressive heat
calm and humid      sweat
drives me inside.


Summer

Gentle dawn slides
Away     Summer storms
Rumble into eve.


Summer

Footprints in white sand
Waves urging breezes ashore
Gentle beachside days

Summer Night

Sultry summer night
The sounds of small critters hush
As footfalls disturb.
Or...
Sultry summer night
Small critters
Hush      Footfalls.
Or...
Sultry night
Small critters hushed
By footfalls








Carol

Green space protector
Councillors quake when facing
Her dauntless spirit.


Gargoyle

The stone gargoyle lurks
Hunched on the rampart above
Licking craggy lips.
Or...

The gargoyle lurks
Hunched on the rampart
Licking craggy lips.


Lynn

Deeply disturbing
Poems of shadow, struggle
Shine bright as the sun.


Black Widow

Patient as death
Lair quiet, and dark as night
Web quivers ... she springs!






Black Widow

She waits, touching web
With legs, vibrations begin.
Anticipation!
Or...

Patiently she waits
Legs lightly touching web
Vibration!




The Tower

White tower rises
Ancient gaol sits empty now
Visitors Only


Cover

Diaphanous gown
Envelopes and yet proclaims
Arousing passion
Or...

Diaphanous gown
Covers but reveals
Rousing     passion!


Bonding

Connection and warmth
The association means
Contact and fervor




Questions?

Wherein lies the lie?
And will we be or won't we?
Question the questions!




Love

Shiver, smile or cry
In turn I am sad or high
Love causes a sigh


Pleasure

Pleasure me, I plead.
Touch me where I'm most in need,.
Pray love, take the lead.



Darkness

Gaze into the dark
Your stare must not long linger
The dark may stare back!


Constancy

Search for a constant
Look no further, the only thing constant is     change.


Rhyming Haiku

Feed dreams and starve fear
Be happy, don't cry my dear
You alone must steer.




Chocolate

Chocolate drizzled
On bare skin, and strawberry.
Lovely, tasty treat.







Mahatma Gandhi
(Paraphrase)

Happiness is when
What you think, you do, you say
Live in harmony.



Regrets

Live life to the full
Embrace decisions with verve
Leave with no regrets.


Sin

If sin is the norm
then saints are exceptions
that prove the rule



Decisions

Shall I hurt someone?
Is that what I want? And why?
Better to be kind.




Piracy

I am the pirate
Captain Blood, cutlass in hand
With a smile I wake.





Jo

Autism will not win
Kindness shines through in her life.
Love directs each day.


Jo

Making her way
through tears and pain
with a smile


Love

I am not in love!
Once and again to myself!
Wishing it was true!
...Or

I am not in love!
I am not in love, I say!
I am not...oh crap!


Love

With pen and paper
She wrote of  love     he died
It was another
Or...

She wrote of her love
for another     he died a
little with each word.


Love

Put away your fear
Smile and chase away your tear
Love may soon appear




Sex

HIM:
The kiss was perfect
The sex was even better
Cuddling was a bore.
HER:
Why was there no play,
Before that quick performance
Practice, practice please!


Haiku

Hails from foreign lands
Has crossed so much empty sand
Just to hold her hand.




Lynnie

Blue skies, little breeze
All things bright is what she sees
Monday morning love!


Grace

My secret girlfriend
Loves another. Her role play
Tends to help me mend!


Rain

Rain falls heavy ~
as a curtain    Obscures ~
the wounded land.


Light

Bright white sunlight
Beats down on azure water
Overwhelming all!


Starlight



Rhyme

Forsooth! My achy tooth!
In a booth I tell the truth
I need some vermouth


Wrong Turn

I knew the road well
I got lost there just the same
Where did I go wrong?



Lucifer

Lucifer and I
Share a look; we understand.
I stroke her, she purrs.





Bees

The buzzing about
My ear was incessantly
Loud and ceaseless



Walking

Walking in a field
Insects hum, breeze blows gently
Rustling through the grass.


Question

The age old question,
Should I speak or hold my tongue
I never know which.



Essentials

Life is so simple
Shelter, sex, sleep, eat ice cream
The Important things!







Twitter

Retweets mean too much
Importance overrated
Yet we yearn for them!


Twitter

Twitter is social
Networking with new people
Oh so contagious


Evening















Mockingbird

Mockingbird sings a
song into the empty night.
Searching for a mate.


Storm

Thunder rumbles as
Lightning flashes in the night
Creating shadows


...Or

Electrical storm
Lightning flashes
Thunder echoes.


Sex

Soft and warm
I stroke deeply
Her back arches.







Marines

Marines never leave
their dead behind. No matter
the cost they come home.



First To Fight

First to fight, and die
Retreat will never apply
Semper Fi they cry



Combat

Like bees zipping by
Sheltered in foxholes from
A flurry of death


Women!

Cost the kitchen sink
And now she desires a mink
Gad I need a drink!



Kory

Kor said she was hot
And not in a very good way
I gave her a blow...


Time

The clock ticks forward
Second by second, never
Slowing, in a rush.
Or...

The clock ticks forward
Second by steady second,
Always in a rush.
Or...

Clock ticks on,
Seconds mount     rush by
On wings.


Caprice

She said, "I bet you
got some peace", I wanted to
jaw, then felt caprice.


Time

Time meanders when
one is young; flashes past at
Mach speed in old age.
Or...
Time meanders
when one is young.
Flies past in old age.





Guadalupe

Cottonwoods line both
Sides of the Guadalupe
Its waters twain South


Starry Night

"Starry, starry night",
MacLean wrote about Van Gogh's
beautiful painting


Change

There are people near
Who may suffer you to change
Heed only your heart


Sleep

As the dawn nears,
the night critters quieten,
prepare for slumber.


Life

Birds circle above
A mortal struggle below
Life meeting death


Protection

Protection the shield
Show disdain and suspicion
Armor against pain.


Cake

Body was curvy
Until the knife sliced deep,
But then there was cake!


The Sea

The sea was angry
Waves poured over the gunwales
She foundered, and sank.







Zombies

The virus was fleet
Went thru humans like a treat
Tonight zombies eat.


Dusty

So dusty in here
Roaming in my mind
Need a mop and broom


The Dead Skunk Song

Loudon Wainwright sang
The Dead Skunk song in my brain
In the early hours.


Waiting...

Patience is my foil
I abhor waiting at all
Poise is a toil.


Wayback

Peabody and Sherm
Used their wayback machine
To right past days wrongs.


Jack

Jack savors a treat
He adores his ma and pa
But he loves to nap!


Dawn

Dawn broke over the plain
Creatures stirred, began their day
Others stilled, to sleep.


Poe

Poe said it well. Life
Is a dream within a dream.
Reality bites!


Band

Danced to a rock band
The music though grand, was canned
A copycat brand.


Dragons

Beware the dragon!
For he is agile, breathes fire,
And you are crunchy!


Ends

Ends are not ends,
But beginnings.
Life always     wins.


Slave

A sexual slave
Drugged, raped, beaten for revolt
By Lucifer himself!


Holocaust

Such a nasty name
Creates turmoil in the brain
It is Holocaust!




Longhorn

Hillside of 'bonnets
Longhorn rests and chews its cud
Lazy Texas day.





Ripper

He stalked the East End
Girls of the night were his prey
Ripper was his name.


Politician

Politician! Bah!
I spit the word on the ground
And wash out my mouth.


Affair

'It doesn't matter'
Words that peel skin like a knife
Dooming any affair


Morning Glory

Brief, beautiful bloom
Unfurls in Morning     Glory
fades by eve.


Golf
Wedge arcs in the sun
Ball sails toward the green
And lands     bunkered!


Golf

Windblown pasture ~
Seaside links, ancient ~
Course     St. Andrews


Golf

Muirfield greens
like putting on ice!      Perhaps
some water tonight!


Dead

Dead as a doorknob
Cold as a clam. Apocalypse
Rising     Zombie!


Life

Spring is birth
Autumn death    Seasons
Echo wheels of life.



Fairy

Gossamer winged
Fairy is an imp.     Alters
All on a whim.


Skies

Town is dirty grey~
Country is dusty brown     Skies~
are icy blue.






North Atlantic

German battlewagons ~
Brit dreadnoughts. Fire, founder
Sea of lost souls


Pudding

vanilla and eggs
milk and sugar. The glory
that is      pudding!


Ali Baba

'Open', sez me
Ali Baba waved a hand
Magic carpet ride!


Winds

zephyr of summer
gentle breeze     Hawk of
winter, icy blast.


PB&J

Peanut butter and
Strawberry preserves!     Heaven
On fresh baked bread!


Haiku Challenge "waste"

Wasteland looms.
Sands to a far horizon.     Heat
waves offer mirage.

and...

Struggling with death
which refuses to bargain.
What wasted effort

and...

We waste
the resources of our orb
profligately


Dawn

Cool of the night
Holding back the heat     False
dawn lights the East





Heat

Humid, grinding heat
Assails the spirit     Dooms the
Soul to lethargy


Mean

She said I was mean!
I thought I was average!
How neutral of me!


Moon

The moon is blue...
Cheese that is. So the sun
must be cheddar!


Bluebell

Large field in Spring
One, solitary, Bluebell
Strains toward the sun.


Dandelion

Wave Dandelion
Dozens of parachutes
Sail in the breeze.


The Piss Elm

The tree leaked
"onomatopoeia"
laughed the Elm.


Mons

He ached
To touch her
Mons veneris.


War

There is no cure
for the disease of war.     A
virus run amok.


Crazy

Love is crazy
Hate is crazy, I'd rather
be crazy in love


Sol

Light and warmth
Sol gifts the Earth those.
Also liquid water.


Undercurrent

Undercurrent
Terror from beneath
Sweeps all away


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Haiku has few rules.
Some of you believe they do
Not apply.to you.



Rules for Haiku
Three lines and seventeen syllables

First: five syllables
Second: seven syllables
Third: five syllables





                                                             

Monday, March 18, 2013

Getting Sober



     In 1995 I was about to die. I knew it because my liver hurt every time I took a swallow of alcohol. It was swollen and painful; I could feel it when I pressed my fingers against it on my right side under my ribcage, and it pressed against my ribs. I was scared but not scared enough to forego my next beer or G&T. I was a functioning (?) alcoholic. I drank slowly but steadily, all day long, every day, hardly ever slept for more than a couple of hours at a time, and had tremors so bad that I could barely feed myself. I was alone in the world. My family couldn't stand to watch me fade away, so they avoided me at all costs.

     My only source of income was a small VA disability, plus any money I could make as a handyman. I spent most of my available money on liquor or drugs, so I had no place to live. My pickup truck served as bedroom, kitchen, and living room. I used convenience store restrooms for my ablutions. I borrowed or bought paperback books at the used bookstore so I would have something to do while I drank. The grocery store provided cheap canned goods to eat.

     On March 6th of that year, while laying in my truck in a large parking lot, I ran out of money, patience, and time, all at once. I had just finished drinking my last beer and smoking my last joint, and I was trying to decide how to kill myself with the least inconvenience to anyone else (a drunks reasoning) when I apparently fell asleep. I learned later that a police officer rolled up next to me, tried to wake me, and when he couldn't he called an ambulance. While he waited for them to arrive he searched the truck and found the roach I'd left in the ashtray. Drunk, stoned and unconscious, I was placed under arrest.

     I awoke in a hospital bed sometime that night. Informed of my circumstances, I asked to see my sister and my family doctor. It turned out they had already been notified, and they'd been busy. My sister had talked to the district attorney about allowing me to get help and my doctor had talked to a counselor friend at the VA hospital in Shreveport. A bed was being saved for me in the detox ward. Early the next morning my brother-in-law drove me the 75 miles from Texarkana to Shreveport and helped me through the admittance procedures at the hospital.

     Detoxification is not fun. Five days of shots, shakes, and interrogations. The shots try to restore your body to some semblance of health. Drugs like  haloperidol, beta-blockers and clonidine are common medications that help the alcoholic recover from withdrawal. The drugs are monitored and taken regularly for 3 to 5 days to ensure a safe withdrawal. They help the drunk avoid the DT's or Delirium Tremors, but they can't really stop the shakes, which are a physical symptom of long term alcohol abuse. The interrogations are just a way of determining if the patient is a good candidate for the longer term, more intense, thirty day recovery program.

     Live in accomodations are available for veterans who don't live near a VA clinic or have unstable, or no housing. Special programs are offered to veterans with special concerns, and homeless patients. A drug abuser coming to VA will find the following kinds of care: first-time screening for alcohol or tobacco use in all care locations, short outpatient counseling including focus on motivation, residential (live-in) care, medically managed detoxification (stopping substance use safely) and services to get stable, continuing care and relapse prevention, along with self-help groups like Alcoholics Anonymous.

     Apparently the way had been greased for me, because despite my surliness at the process I was accepted for longer term treatment, and at the end of the five day detox I was moved one floor up to the treatment center. Placed in a four bed room, and then summoned by one of the counselors, I was asked a series of pro-forma questions about my life and drug usage. Yes, I said drug usage. Alcohol is nothing more or less than a mind altering drug, like marijuana or heroin. The only difference being that alcohol is legal.

     I settled into the daily routine fairly easily. Unsure that I wanted to be there, but unable to think of anything else to do with my life at the moment, other than die, I accepted that perhaps I could use a month of three hots and a cot. The daily routine was consistent, which is one of the things they were trying to teach us. We had three large, nourishing, and fairly tasty meals every day, an hour of individual one to one therapy with a counselor, two hours of group therapy, exercise and shop therapy, and an Alcoholics Anonymous meeting every evening. We were encouraged to attend church services on the ward every Sunday morning.

     As I had more days of sobriety the idea slowly came to me that there was a way to live that didn't include drugs. Perhaps life wasn't as hopeless as I thought. Maybe I could live a normal life, like so many other people do. At the same time, it was hard to imagine life without drugs and alcohol, because I'd depended on them for so many years. I was going to have to change my entire life if I was to lead a successful life. Now that's a scary thought for an addictive personality.

     I slowly understood that I could change. It might not be easy but others had done it and so could I. The AA meetings especially became a lifeline, a place where I could feel welcome and safe. I came to understand that I would never be judged there, as long as I was honest with myself and others. The twelve steps were a guideline to a new life, if I would just accept that I needed structure in my life. That I needed to be honest, and willing to change the way I looked at myself and the world.

              Next time I'll write about the ease and hardship of
                              of my first year of sobriety...

Monday, March 11, 2013

Then It Is Winter...


     You know, time has a way of moving quickly and catching you unaware of the passing years. It seems just yesterday that I was young, out of school and embarking on my new life. Yet in a way it seems like eons ago, and I wonder where all the years went. I know that I lived them all. I have memories of how it was back then and of all my hopes and dreams.

     But here is the winter of my life and it catches me by surprise. How did I get here so fast? Where did all the years go and my youth? I remember well seeing older people through the years and thinking that those older people were years away from me and that winter was so far off that I could not fathom it or even imagine fully what it might be like.

     Yet here it is. My friends are retired and getting grey; they move slower and I see older people now. Some are in better and some are in worse shape than me, but I see the great change. Not like the ones I remember who were young and vibrant, but like me their age is beginning to show and we are now those older folks that we used to see and never thought we'd be. Each day now I find that just getting a shower is a real target for the day! And taking a nap is not a treat anymore, it's mandatory! Because if I don't take a nap of my own free will, I'll just fall asleep where I sit.

     So now I enter into this new season of my life unprepared for all the aches and pains and the loss of strength and ability to go and do things that I wish I had done but never did. At least I know that though the winter has come, and I'm not sure how long it will last, I do know that when it's over on this earth, it's over. A new adventure will have begun.

     I have no regrets. There are things I wish I hadn't done and things I should have done, but indeed there are many things I'm happy to have done. It's all in a lifetime.

     So, if you're not in your winter yet, let me remind you that it will be here sooner than you think. Whatever you would like to accomplish in your life, please get started. Don't put things off too long. Life goes by in the blink of an eye. So do what you can today, as you can never be sure if this is your last day or not. There is no promise that you will see all the seasons of your life. Live for today and say all the things that you want your loved ones to remember, and hope that they appreciate and love you for all the things that you have done for them.

     Remember that life is a gift. The way you live it is your gift to those who come after.


_______________ A Beautiful Requiem

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sun on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning’s hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft starlight at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there; I did not die.

~Mary Frye~